Johnny, the kitchen sink has been clogged for days, some utensil probably
fell down there.
And the Drano won't work but smells dangerous, and the crusty dishes
have piled up.
waiting for the plumber I still haven't called. This is the everyday we
spoke of.
It's winter again: the sky's a deep headstrong blue, and the sunlight
pours through.
the open living room windows because the heat's on too high in here, and
I can't turn it off.
For weeks now, driving, or dropping a bag of groceries in the street,
the bag breaking,
I've been thinking: This is what the living do. And yesterday, hurrying
along those
wobbly bricks in the Cambridge sidewalk, spilling my coffee down my
wrist and sleeve,
I thought it again, and again later, when buying a hairbrush: This is it.
Parking. Slamming the car door shut in the cold. What you called
that yearning.
What you finally gave up. We want the spring to come and the winter to
pass. We want
whoever to call or not call, a letter, a kiss - we want more and more and
then more of it.
But there are moments, walking, when I catch a glimpse of myself in the
window glass,
say, the window of the corner video store, and I'm gripped by a cherishing
so deep.
for my own blowing hair, chapped face, and unbuttoned coat that I'm
speechless:
I am living, I remember you.
Marie Howe
